MY KIDS ARE MY LIFE!
MERCEDEZ
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Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
mistakes
im having a hard time lately, i know i messed up and i know i have to pay for my mistake but whats worse is finding out i ruined plans that were going to be a supprise to me and my daughter. im at a point in my life right now that is hard for me to deal with. the dissapointed looks i get and the talks i get about how bad i messed up is hitting me hard, Yet Again! im thrown into a wall and beaten til i cant stand cant talk cant see and cant feel anything and whats worse is that i have to take what i have done and admit to myself my faults and that is probably the hardest thing i have ever done in my life. Yes i have messed up quite a few times in my life but not like this not with the law and that is harder than learning my previous lessons on my own. it also sucks that i am making my family pay right along with me for my mistakes. i feel so stupid and now have stooped down to the level that i was before i got my perfect family. No im not perfect i dont go to church i do swear and smoke but im not a bad person and i want to do better it just takes time noone knows what my life was like before and noone knows how i handle my life now and maybe thats my downfall maybe thats my problem, idk, but i know im learning from this new mistake and i just need more time to learn myself and admit my faults. one day i will just not today i cant change in one day god didnt make the world in one day so i know i have time to change. i love my family and i want them to be proud of me but getting there and earning that back is harder than i thought it was, ya when i was younger i didnt care but now its all i care about my family that is. ive grown so much and i just need to keep going and keep trying.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
my life in the basin!!!
HOLY COW!!!!!!! It has been such a busy fall it has b33n, what with first year in school with Sadiez, hunting with my uncles grandparents mono roger mary and the all our kids to amazing halloween party with my close friends and thier kids, to great bithday parties, to a crazy couple months at work to duh duh da daaaaaaa my amazing husbands promotion! yay babe im so proud of you!!! Other great things like the welcoming to 2 new nephewes and cousins!!!!! also to hardships life some family feauding to family reconnections, and to family entering the slc hospitals for surgeries. also i have cut my hair yes you read that right i cut my hair. u all shall s33 soon enough haha. I have absolutly enjoyed making memories with my family all sides of my family might be a tad dysfunctional but they all are family and i love you all!!! ok now thanks for reading have a great day and may your next memory you make be an amazing one!!!
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
almost here
well its deffintatly been another challenging 20 days with andy gone at least this time nothing happened to the house or trucks for once. :D. but i am excited to have him home for a few days then its back to pa for work. oh how sick of that state and rig am i. cede needs her dad around and this job is hard on us all. i do got plans though for when he is home we are going shed hunting, we are going to the zoo i hope and movies deffinatly going to the movies. and andys birthday will have to be celebrated early because he leaves for pa on his birthday so im thinking the 8 or so but that also depends on baby jack if he decides to come good bye basin hello st george i want to see that cutness about to arrive plus his older brother and parents. well idk wat else to say. other than see you later and have fun
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
wow
i cant believe i havnt been on for so long. well andy got bumped up again yay us now he is once again a driller im so happy. cedez has had so much fun with her new bike we got her for her birthday. it was one of the best birthdays we had a pinata and cake ice cream it was so fun. then we went snowboarding that was fun three days in our vacation share a blast. now im just working and enjoying my days off lots of them but its worth it.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
sick
dont you hate when you get sick.. ugh it makes you just want to find a deep dark hole and hide waiting for the sickness to go away right well thats how mercedez and i feel today...ugh dr appt for baby is at 215 and i wish it would get here fast uh i feel like crap talk you up later
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Thursday, September 17, 2009
bed
Its so funny to walk into witchietatche ( thats ute for little bird, mercedez given name) room and see what shes been doing all day long. i know she loves to play with dolls but not like this
oh well i love her to death. just a cutie
Friday, August 14, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
dads poem
A Dads Poem Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day aloneAnd that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare. Each of them was searching, a man who wasn't there. "Where's her daddy at?" she heard a boy call out. "She probably doesn't have one," another student dared to shout. And from somewhere near the back, she heard a daddy say, "Looks like another deadbeat dad, too busy to waste his day." The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her Mom. And looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on. And with hands behind her back, slowly she began to speak. And out from the mouth of a child, unique. "My Daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so far away. But I know he wishes he could be, since this is such a special day. And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know. All about my daddy, and how much he loves me so. He loved to tell me stories he taught me to ride my bike. He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me to fly a kite. We used to share fudge sundaes, and ice cream in a cone. And though you cannot see him. I'm not standing here alone. "Cause my daddy's always with me, even though we are apart I know because he told me, he'll forever be in my heart" With that, her little hand reached up, and lay across her chest. Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath her favorite dress. And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads, her mother stood in tears. Proudly watching her daughter, who was wise beyond her years. For she stood up for the love of a man not in her life. Doing what was best for her, doing what was right. And when she dropped her hand back down, staring straight into the crowd. She finished with a voice so soft, but its message clear and loud. "I love my daddy very much, he's my shining star. And if he could, he'd be here, but heaven's just too far You see he was a policeman and died just this past year When airplanes hit the towers and taught Americans to fear. But sometimes when I close my eyes, it's like he never went away." And then she closed her eyes, and saw him there that day. And to her mothers amazement, she witnessed with surprise A room full of daddies and children, all starting to close their eyes. Who knows what they saw before them, who knows what they felt inside. Perhaps for merely a second, they saw him at her side. "I know you're with me Daddy," to the silence she called out. And what happened next made believers, of those once filled with doubt. Not one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had been closed. But there on the desk beside her, was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose. And a child was blessed, if only for a moment, by the love of her shining star. and given the gift of believing, that heaven is never too far.
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About Me
- LiSa AnD FaMiLy
- Hi im Lisa. I am 25 and have the best family in the world!!! My daughter is ending her first year of head start im so proud of her she knows how to spell her name and is working on writing it, she knows her numbers and some ute language they also have taught her some sign language. My wonderful husband is working in PA state and is doing an amazing job, he has just got a promotion im so proud of him. I am really into vintage things and hunting. Spending time with my family is the thing i love the most.